Recently a friend asked me how I was doing in retirement. I normally smile thoughtfully and respond, “It’s great!” any time the question arises. But I am never comfortable with my answer; it never feels quite honest.

             I worry that I left my job before I had planned on “retiring.” There was to be a party, a trip to parts unknown, doing things I love, more time with family, quality time with Rick, and a plan… (we may be on to something here, a plan…). I love spontaneity and living in the moment, but I realize that I like to be in control of my life and unplanned retirement was me being completely out of control.  So, when my friend asked, she asked with some specificity that did not quite allow for, “it’s great!”,” to be my answer.

            I am not sure what I actually told her. I’m certain it was not eloquent or enlightening, but the question has really given me pause and time for reflection.

            It was one year ago this month,  that I posted my first blog. As I look back on the year my heart is filled with joy and gratitude. I have learned so much, made such wonderful new friends and truly strengthened some old and dear friendships. I have learned to follow my heart, which is not, I’ve found, the road most traveled; it is bumpy and beautiful and not on the map. My life is the party.  My life is traveling to parts unknown.  It is a house filled with music, conversation, meditation, art and love. I celebrate my marriage, my family and the time we have together. I celebrate my friendships old and new. I celebrate my art and the joy that it brings.  I plan to live each day joyfully learning, sharing, creating and giving thanks for this wonderful life.

            Now when you ask me, “How’s retirement?” my answer will honestly be, “It’s great!”

Love and joy,

Bella